Don't try and keep up, you are so far behind.

Well, as it happens to everyone, I set my goals, and plan my dreams. But no no, everything else comes first. Whether it is the important stuff, or just plain leisure, it will come before all others. Though even more so, is the lessons on the way. I always try and stay posative, even in the darkest of times. To be the one to carry others burdens is my joy, and my downfall. But that is half the journey. Everday is many ups, and many downs. Where you end up is up to you, or is it? Of course it is, just need to stay posative. Send yourself to something that will help you relax, it is not a matter of what you want, it is just what you think is best for that moment. But returning to what really makes you happy, is probably the last thing you will do, or I will do. Am I speaking for you? No no, just saying it how it is. Everyone dislikes someone who is happier than them, at first you want to share it, then jealousy creeps in, but that's okay. It is easy to avoid once I came to the realisation that misery loves company. But that's okay, because at least misery chose me, to be miserable to, and not someone else. It's the sacrifice I am willing to make. But what about the others that you lose from fixing someone elses mistake. Well that is okay as well, because friends understand, they wait patiently at the door, for you to come home. A warm embrace will help you return to that joyous time, even if just for a second. What is it to this world, that cannot be fixed, to help it for the better? No, to merely assist with the better. A mere speck of what is to one day be a whole. Because it is not about changing something, that is impossible. It is about loosening the grasp upon the unchangable. To sooner allow that which you work for, to easier see that which you tread upon. But do not worry all who fret, no, please wait patiently for me, as I will be there to assist you as well. Because for I am your burden, I am your hatred, your fear. Because that is the gift you have given to me to hold, so that when I am with you, you feel safer, because I have been bestowed the mask you wish for me to wear. Even if just for a short while. Because in the end, you will have recognized all things you dislike, because I was there to show you, with a friendly smile. But then you end up at the beginning again. So what was it all for? Well, that is for you to find out, now is it not?

That is okay, we can be friends. Even if it is not what you want. Because how do you know what you want? How do any of us. We merely enjoy the ride, hoping that nothing befalls us. Nothing is better from another point of view, you take it as you choose to. If all matters were gray, then who are we to judge? Our emotions ran by that which we were told to feel. But again, it is okay. Because nobody is at the point of making a decision on their own, not even myself. That which I have gained, I must lose to gain once more. It is not to be perfect, but to attempt to dip into perfection. Whether found or not, to seek is to follow, to be lead. How can you move if not without your own two feet, two legs, own strength to make that change. Not for the better, not for the worse, just for a change. All things are as you choose to percieve them, welcome to the entrance to your empty shell. Because without an entrance, how can there be an exit.

So I leave you, with words once lost, many times found. But disregard to all that I have learned, and taught, ignored, and achieved. My wisdom to you, your grace to soon be glory. In a kingdom where all is real, and understood. Perfection is achieved through that which is to never be understood. The One, the Only, the Last Real Truth. What is it to you?

There you are, what took you so long?